The Golden Goodie Part 1

"When a human being tries to symbolize what it is that he really wants at the end of the line;
Very often, he thinks of a flower.

There is the celestial rose, in Dante's vision of paradise.
There is the golden lotus of Mahāvairocanax, the great sun buddha. At the center of the Mangala.
There is the Rose Garden of Our Lady. There are rose windows in cathedrals.

Always that flower at the end of the line. And Freud says, "Well, you know what that is. That's where everybody wants to go back to the womb."
Well, what's so attractive about the womb?

You see, to explain the religious imagery of the flower by sex is only to add another puzzle.

What's so great about sex? What's so great about going back to the womb?
Why, because there, I am regressed to the place which psychologist don't really like to talk about. Because, they say in the womb, the baby feels omnipotent. And this is of course a fantasy.

It isn't mature. In other words, in the womb you don't have a 1900's (or in this case 2000's...) personality; because you are not defined in the womb as we define man in our secular philosophies. In the womb, the baby floats. In the womb, the baby doesn't know the difference between what's inside its skin and what's outside. It has what Freud calls the oceanic feeling and that is another form of cosmic consciousness, only the baby hasn't got the language to express it like an adult. But there it is, it's in cosmic consciousness.

And that's what everybody sort of wants, because that is our original nature. So that's why the womb is interesting, and why the flower is interesting, why we symbolize the golden goodie at the end of the line with the golden flower, the oriole around the saint, or the buddha.

And that's why we all envy the bees who float around in gardens and suck honey from flowers. Go into those luminous cups. As Oscar Wilde put it, "the flowers in which the gold bees dream."

But that flower, that golden goodie, isn't at the end of the line. You're in it.

The radiating petals, the mandala, the great circle of the flower, is the galaxy in which you live. It is the whole universe radiating around you in which you are.

And this radiation is also sightly. It's the dance, in which you're involved- if only you'd realize;
That the purpose of life is not the future. And if you think it is, you'll go on and on and on looking for it there, and never find it. Because the future, it its own way, fades out in the same way as the past fades out.

You'll get older, and older, and older;
and if you don't come crash, you'll just Peter-out.

It wasn't there. And you may feel vaguely cheated about the whole thing. You were given the come-on;

There was something coming, there was that thing at the end of the line, the golden goodie, but you've been sitting in the middle of the golden goodie all the time!"

Alan Watts

13 Things You Should Do on a Crappy Day:

1. As Hayley Williams put it, "If you ever think about giving up, remember why you held on for so long."

2. Make a to-do list for tomorrow. This will make you feel a lot more productive and probably will make you feel better about the quality of your day.

3. Before bed, write out the pros and cons of that day. And if you want, write out why you think each of the cons played out the way they did.

4. Call someone you haven't talked to in a while. Preferably a positive person.

5. Try to write your own joke.

6. At the end of the day, look back and try to see the humor in the events of the day. Even if they were terrible.

7. Distance yourself from any negative people that may be subtly putting you down.

8. Look in the mirror and smile. Yes. Do it.

9. Have a cup of warm tea.

10. Do something nice you've never done before for someone.

11. Write out 10 things you appreciate about yourself.

12. Do something active, like working out.

13. Think positive thoughts before you go to sleep. Have hope for tomorrow that it will be better. Think about your to-do list.

Part II

In addition to what I said about 'seeing yourself in the correct way'..

If you really, genuinely became, or, started living this way as I mentioned...

This also is part of (in my opinion) getting right with Who we call God, in your heart. 

Cause you know, you've heard a hundred times, 'you cannot JUST know your stuff and go through the motions, following the rules, and "go to heaven" without actually being "right" with God "in your heart", and having a personal relationship with Him'.

And to me, the majority of the meaning OF realizing what you are, is having a personal relationship with (Who we call) God. Because it will effortlessly happen if you do. 

(Having a personal relationship with God will happen effortlessly if you see yourself in the correct way.)

Your Actual Purpose: Part I

13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.

14 For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.

The thing I've mentioned before, about, in a sense, experiencing, or, realizing what you are, and, 'seeing yourself in the correct way';

Doing this, and playing by the rules; I think, when you start living this way, your actual purpose is right there in front of you, and I think it's very clear what you should be doing. (In a sense, too, the feeling is also a kind of a realization of not really having to do anything) But also I feel like the part a lot of people forget about, once they start learning about this, is how you will influence other people once you've began to live this way. Do you realize how important it is?

What I feel like your sole purpose is, mine and yours both, is to, obviously "see yourself in the correct way," (which is also seeing everything in the correct way, that includes Who we call God), follow the commandments, (God's commandments.) and to, in my words, make a positive impact on every single life you can. When you see this way and know how wonderful it can be, do everything a favor and try getting others to see it, too.

There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus. Galatians 3:28

In my opinion, if you 'see yourself in the correct way' (as Alan Watts once put it) living how you should be should pretty much come natural.

Being totally honest, being a female makes me feel futile. For many reasons. (Some of them relating to how I've been raised. How my childhood has been. Female influences in my life. etc.) But really coming to grips with, fully realizing the true way Galatians 3:28 is meant to be taken, the mindset, (or realization) that I am one with my surroundings when  I'm surrounded by nature, or surrounded by people, (things of the sort, too,) has made me really completely look past genders. I hardly see genders anymore when I look at people, when it comes to judgment. When it comes to the actual soul, in my opinion, the sexes aren't a subject matter. They are nothing to be discussed.

What I'm getting at is it's only the physical body that possesses genders. No matter what you look like, feel like, guy or gal, etc.; that is not what defines you. Nothing defines you.

It's so important to just realize that and get on with your life.

"Basically, there is simply nothing to worry about, because you yourself are the eternal energy of the universe."
-Alan Watts

I brought up the topic of being a female just because it's something very personal. Something I've spent a lot of my time thinking about. Something that's really, to say the least, bummed me out, and I think it's a very good example of what I'm getting at.

"Things are as they are. Looking out into the universe at night, we make no comparisons between right and wrong, nor between well and badly arranged constellations."
-Alan Watts

"You are something the whole universe is doing, in the same way that a wave is something that the whole ocean is doing. The real you is the whole universe." - Alan Watts

The spirit behind what a lot of people see as Christianity really is way too misleading way too often. It's so rare to meet people who really seem to understand what their place is in this world and what they should be doing.


It's not like I expect my blog to really influence a lot of people, (especially since blogs really aren't 'cool' anymore,) but I figured it's better here than not here. This blog is dedicated to just maybe the few people who might see it, who might influence the person next to them to maybe live slightly differently.